knock. knock.

i feel empty.



am i having a broken heart?
ooh, i don't even in love on somebody.

i might be wrong, but there is something matter in life that i need to describe more than just into words which is i have no idea what it is. my life is keep going and i never ever had thought to end this, or maybe ever once. but still, i didn't really mean it.

this cycling of life is suck.
i'm rounding at the same pole and i don't know what to excited about what to wondering to what to hoping and expect. i'm always having let it flow and loss let the faith do it. i'm too trustful for my faith. and that wasn't quite awesome.

i want the awesome part of my life, or i just haven't been there?
oh guess what, this will take longer and harder than i've ever expected. and actually i am afraid, and maybe i just want to stay or back. i know this isn't a must to say words but i am freaking out inside. i'm about to die, every single day. and what have i done? study for my future which is not sure for happening because i have no idea when will i die?
i'm preparing too much for my future which is unseen.

please tell me, am i doing my life in a wrong way?

is it how we supposed to live and feeling empty all every days without doubt and you know say something nonsense. i'm having war inside and outside.
my heart beats so i don't have anyone to tell about this.
so complicated but i know one thing what i want right now, in fact those are the worst.

i want some more and awesome.
i had awesome but.. have i?

i'm really stuck.
and for the last, just please bless my life.

knock knock!
is someone out there?