Back To You

So, in this very early 2019 i found out something so weird.

oh yeah, really. it's out of my very wildest imagination. life is so hack the future of mine.

well, it is. but i'm so stuck. so let's say, 2018 is so good. and too good to say good bye, that's when i realize 2018 might be the best year so i know i'd go back to you again, and again. so thanks. 

for the struggling and lessons. for the thankful. for the making me a better person. for the show me beyond the most hideous secret of humanity, yeah not that big. but, everything.

As i said, 2018 might be the best year it lead me to the other phase of life-realizing-one-step-closer to reality. anyhow, still believng there're still lots of fun things outside. but yeah, the struggle was real. and it's gonna be more real this year. believe me or not, 2019 might be the legen..wait for it..dary! LEGENDARY year. yeah, let's just say that now. whatever will happen, let it happen.

Ever since the day of you know when, it was stuck and since it's changing year not celebrating it like how people did. but really, maybe this time is right. i'm about to leave those and begin again. 

so, let's just say what people usually do when it's New Year's part coming to live.
people start to make the resolution, which makes me also one of that people. yep, cliche.
one resolution for me is just only one and always, All I Want for Life is just to be ENJOYING this. but experience keeps making it full color. so, in the last year i found something more than i was expected. i made more than i was just wanted to be. i get cracked by the chance of getting high. i always want to do different thing, but i'm too comfortable to move. and for all of that stuff, really everything made me now is because of god. God leads me. for the fact, the fake and the fuck. and i feel glad for those. and for that i'd like to say...



thanks for a good, random, and loving year.
and for the very last thing happen at that year.. i’m done with that last one. really, this is not good for health. i’ll be leaving the moment, and then start again.

find me new. new is always better. it’s been almost too hard falling down. nope. too high flying. there’s no way i could be able to have the other chance. i know. but, i’m just gonna miss this chance. please god, give me the good chance. this, so rollercoaster.

it’s better before than this.
so, love of my life been left me this year also. good bye.

but guess what, i realize one thing again. right at this moment.
patience will brings you to another patience untill you do not need to worry to be patience again and again. the point is, BEST THING WILL HAPPEN IN THE BEST TIME.

screw it, life.
i'm more patience than before. well let's just say 2018 taught me and let me know deeper to patience. and always, it is worth.

so, what's next 2019?
please.