happiness.

hello again,

so what do you know about being happy?
i don't.

everything is good, but i still don't get what's the real meaning of it.

it was like having a bad dream, but you just can't remember what happened last night. the routine, the activities, the schedules, the wishes, the life and also the end for us. maybe i'm in the wrong path.

what makes you happy? for real.
for me, well it does really make me think for some minutes, but still i've got nothing.

i love watch movies, because those movies have the plot. the beginning and the ending. at least, we know what will happen in 1-2 hour. or more. while i am stuck. with the same time, same moment, same person, same situation, same day, and same routines. i don't say that i hate this. but, i still wanna be your favourite girl. can i be your number 1? and cry for me? 

i don't even cry, anymore.