the rotation

 hello again from me inside the box,

i never really think about life after this. i mean, ofcourse i think about it a lot of times, but whenever i tried to think about future, i just can't continue it. i don't know how to live life after this, will i survive or not. i just want to stop this. this whole rotation of life.

one day, i think i can keep moving on with life with a partner around. anyway, no one is around. when someone is around, it just gave the pain. i'm not ready or have any sigh to receive the pain.

when is actually you feel sure about one thing? this is a surely feeling but i don't know if life is really telling me the truth or just pass? 

maybe this is just how universe tell me to stop. stop being around the wrong people. this life is shitty thing to keep. 

this whole rotation is bad, i'm not gonna live with life people chose me to. this is my life, right?
i don't think if anybody ever really care, so screw them. 

maybe i will end up being alone forever or maybe i need the new begining. 

or just in case i'm just not in the mood right now, give me the sign. any sign to keep me still being alive. 

i'm not even really ready to meet tomorrow, i just need someone to talk, yes right. i know where to go. 

goodbye.