here we go again,
i know i can figure it out everything to me, and i know by writting things it will make everything be better. and i know before i read, this can heal me.
i feel too deep into what i am feeling and fall far for it, the way i overcome those are by listening to other so my mind will stop talking. but it made me miserable and overwhelmed sometimes, i need to be heard too. so, i let myself to talk more but nobody really listening so back again to mind that just can't stop talking.
i thought i have healed, but what can i say. i hate rejection.
the scariest thing for me is to be left, after to be ignored. we all hate it, but seriously, i can't handle it.
i really don't know what will i do with this life. i don't know how is future. and i don't even know what i wanna do. the same routine everyday is so tiring. sometimes, it felt like i just want to stop. from anything.
i hate the kind of feeling to be depend to other one, it feels so exhausting. and i hate me, even more. more than i hate the other one for having this kind of feeling.
hi, i am so complicated which i know i keep typing things meaningless, but this is what my mind told me and it wont stop. i need someone to help me to figure this out. to help me to stop minding everythings. to stop talking. to be quiet. i actually really tired and want to just sleep, but mind wont stop working. do i need to go to psychiatrist?
oh please, oh please.
why do we have to live in the first day. why do we have to live on earth. why do this happening to me. why nobody listens, i think i do really need to write this. but still, i need to speak loud to be heard.
i thought i have found what i've been searching for this whole time, however it doesn't my home. i am not at home yet.
maybe i need to go to volunteer, or you know just leave for out of the box.
