Dear Anyone Who Might Read This,
Hi! I am Tasia. And this is the whole feeling i've been felt and safe. I was wondering if any expectations could be happen or maybe anything. I think, i looked everything only in one side before, and ignoring. But, some experiences just keep giving me more than what i have asked for.
Right, I am 21 already. So, my life is getting more real than yesterday. Eventually, i breath inside my lungs desperately wanted to exhales more. I need more, i think. But, here i am... having more than anyone else. When i think i need more, i just can not describe what kind of "more" do i need to have. So, i was freezing.
Maybe, one day i will back and keep ignoring people, back to my nature life. I've been faking my whole destination for 2 months. Couple days ago, it was over. But, i just feel something is missing. And making my mind keep thinking, What Have I Been Doing This Whole Time?
I'm late.
People keep saying there's no word for "late" in this whole world. But, that's what i'm feeling. I know, it's not my feeling what is we needed for right now. It's not all about me. But, i always want everyone comes and see it's always me. Always everything comes about me, and my self.
I was selfish. Still today, but literally i understand. We should observe from hundreds sides, but still we can't judge. Or maybe, don't ignoring. All you have to do is give your sweetest face with smile on it, and pretend you are okay. Because, you are actually Okay. Even better than anyone else.
So, why would we have to ask more and more? Everything will comes at the end. I've been learning for this 21 years. And i will keep learning for some reasons i had to. Maybe, i'm not so ready today. Maybe, tomorrow i'm still not ready. But, i believe for the time will follow my expectation.
And finally, one day.. I could be totally understood Why Would I Have To Stand On This Beautiful Earth.
It's Me,
Always..
