we do not need a plan

well, be grown up is not always been a good idea.
i realize it even since when i was a kid. i wish i never been grown up, once i told myself.
and in another day, i asked me if maybe i have to wake up and see more things here, but i have to grow up first.

this's too complicated.
then i made some plans to do. because i know just a one real thing.
i will never could stop the times. even just a second.
so then i made some plans...
i thought it, imagined it, even i wrote evey single things.
it was very cleaned plan. so one day, i will be able to keep enjoy my grown up times.

but i didn't.

it can never been a full enjoyable year, or an exciting month, even it's quite hard to make a perfect week for me. i'd really love to enjoy those times passed, well i had to. coz it won't be returned.

and all those plans...
never come right through i've ever imagined before.
it always become far from what i expect, it always become either better or worse.
so, i can't blame anything then..
the better one happen outside of my imagination ever, then thought comes to my mind,  it must becoming a really fair faith for me.

untill i've got some thoughts coming..

why are we planning, then?

after all of the things that happened to me...
i've decided a very worst way to live ever, i guess.

"never have a plan, sometimes plan just ruin. through it, with no doubt. believe, and do your faith in the best way"

so, now and then..
 i think i will have no plan for what will i face there

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jadi abaikan saja postingan yang sebelumnya, close your eyes, pass it, leave it, forget.

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